MY OPEN LETTER TO IAN….

MY OPEN LETTER TO IAN
Dear Ian,
Happy 4th Birthday to my little sunshine! When I was pregnant the doctors repeatedly told us that we could abort you for medical reasons, they didn’t know how severe everything would be. I remember crying everyday. I prayed constantly never stopped praying. I remember calling your dad one day and telling him we might have a baby with special needs how do you feel about it? He said “what do you mean? We will love him and do what we need to do. God made are family unique, I’m not worried about it” And aborting you was not an option for us..I was rushed into labor because I failed the “stress test” I don’t know how they expected me to pass, I had appointments every other day and doctors calling us telling us what “may” happen. No one knew for sure. When you were born you were not breathing I remember looking at daddy and Aunty Steph for an update and the look on both of their faces made me just cry, you were intubated and rushed to the NICU ended up pulling your tubes out in less then 24 hours. At the point I knew I had a fighter! After over a month on the hospital and countless follow up appointments and doctors telling us they don’t know how long you will live. I realized its in Gods hands he has never forsaken me and he never will he is my rock and my foundation. The doctors can only tell me so much BUT God has the final say. Here we are celebrating your 4th birthday! I promise to love you and protect you as much as I can from this world that can be cruel and narrow minded at times. I will be by your side until my last breath. You are my greatest accomplishment and one of my biggest blessings!
I love you,
Mommy