Not today

I was hesitant to post this about a year ago, this post just sat in my drafts. After reading it today I realized I may help someone else that may be going through a similar situation.

January 2016…

Man this morning has been one of those days….where I just want to scream but NOT TODAY. My husband and I are trying to get back into our routine…..So let’s rewind a little, Last week Ian was hospitalized he had RSV (Respiratory Syncytial Virus) and Pneumonia. He was admitted to the PICU (pediatric intensive care unit) at Connecticut Children’s Hospital. This was very scary for My husband and I. We knew that Ian was not feeling well and we brought him to his pediatrician who put him on a steroid and antibiotic. When we brought him back for his follow up he didn’t seem to improve how we thought he should so the pediatrician then put him on another dose of steroids and switched his antibiotic….thinking that he had a bacterial infection…..my husband brought Ian to the 2nd follow up (I was at work 😕) and he calls me to say he has to get him to the ER. I left work so quick I texted my manager after the fact to let her know what was going on. Thank God for great managers! When we got to the ER after many sticks and pokes and test we find out about the RSV and Pneumonia. 

Why does my baby have to go through all of this? Why not me?  Will Nia and Eli be ok while we are here? A few of the many question that were going through my head…. needless to say our other 2 kids were being taking care of by our family. We have an amazing support system.  Nia who is 7 was very concerned. About a year and half ago she lost her grandmother to cancer and shortly after that her cousin passed away from cancer as well. She has experienced more loss at 7 then I have in my entire life. Nia was more concerned with if he would come home. She had moments where she cried and I cried with her but also reassured her that Ian would be ok and yes he is coming home.   

  Nia reading a book to Ian.(above)

The devil tried to still my joy today. I had to pray and remind myself of how blessed I am. We woke up late, I was late to work today Nia barely made her bus I didn’t have time to eat breakfast, Eli wanted to watch Elmo instead of getting ready. BUT I am alive and breathing. I won’t be miserable and ungrateful NOT TODAY for I have too much to be happy for. Ian is feeling so much better his teacher and paraprofessional let me know he is much more engaged at school. With all the situations that could have broken my marriage its hasn’t if anything it has made our union stronger. Having my husband as a partner makes life that much better.

MY OPEN LETTER TO IAN….

MY OPEN LETTER TO IAN
Dear Ian,
Happy 4th Birthday to my little sunshine! When I was pregnant the doctors repeatedly told us that we could abort you for medical reasons, they didn’t know how severe everything would be. I remember crying everyday. I prayed constantly never stopped praying. I remember calling your dad one day and telling him we might have a baby with special needs how do you feel about it? He said “what do you mean? We will love him and do what we need to do. God made are family unique, I’m not worried about it” And aborting you was not an option for us..I was rushed into labor because I failed the “stress test” I don’t know how they expected me to pass, I had appointments every other day and doctors calling us telling us what “may” happen. No one knew for sure. When you were born you were not breathing I remember looking at daddy and Aunty Steph for an update and the look on both of their faces made me just cry, you were intubated and rushed to the NICU ended up pulling your tubes out in less then 24 hours. At the point I knew I had a fighter! After over a month on the hospital and countless follow up appointments and doctors telling us they don’t know how long you will live. I realized its in Gods hands he has never forsaken me and he never will he is my rock and my foundation. The doctors can only tell me so much BUT God has the final say. Here we are celebrating your 4th birthday! I promise to love you and protect you as much as I can from this world that can be cruel and narrow minded at times. I will be by your side until my last breath. You are my greatest accomplishment and one of my biggest blessings!
I love you,
Mommy

Erin Condren Life Planner Review 2015

Hi Everyone! If you are reading this post please subscribe to my blog! I recently received my Erin Condren Life planner. I want to start off by saying I have heard of the Erin Condren Life planners for about a year. I found it very hard to spend $50 on a planner. Recently I discovered the planners went on sale 40% off. Instead of $50 they are $30 not only are they on sale but I used a friends referral link and purchased my planner for $20! You can’t beat that!  Now I know it started in January so that leaves me with a little over 8 months to use however I figured this would be a perfect time to try it out and see how much I use it and if it would be worth investing $50 for in 2016. I chose the least expensive shipping and placed my order on 4/15/15 and received my planner on 4/27/15. It does take a little while but I will say it was worth the wait. The packaging for the Erin Condren life planner is amazing. The box is colorful and has inspirational quotes on the outside. As I opened the box it was neatly packed on the top of the peachy tissue paper was a $10 off coupon, a post card with yet again another inspirational quote.  I’m not sure about you but for me I LOVE the inspirational quotes they are quick pick me ups, encouragements and just simple reminders that life may not always be easy however don’t give up. I also received free labels as well, what a nice surprise! When picking my planner I was not sure which one to go with but it became a little easier once I realized you can change your planner cover. I decided to go with the quote planner cover which is picture below. I changed my colors to light pink and turquoise. Definitely so many beautiful reasons to be happy! Overall I would highly recommend the Erin Condren Life Planner! The planner is very durable and the pages are not as thin as previous planners I purchased. The boxes to write in are big and I don’t have to worry about running out of space. I have purchased many planners over the years which I stopped using because it just was not a good fit for me. I love that the Erin Condren planner has a monthly view and a weekly view. In the weekly view the days are broken down by morning, day and night, I personally prefer the days being broken down this way instead of by times. I have invested in some stickers, pens (staedtler) and washi tape to help keep my oh so hectic life fun to plan. I will post again in about a month or so to show you exactly how I use my planner. I will show you the monthly view and then the weekly. If you have read this post and are interested in a Erin Condren planner visit www.erincondren.com. Also if you use my referral link listed below you will receive $10 off of your purchase. https://www.erincondren.com/referral/invite/patricemanson0805 Please feel free to comment and ask questions! Until Later, Treecy ♥

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About Me!

Hi All!

Since I have decided that blogging is what I want to do when I have a free moment (and maybe even during my not so free moments) I think it would only be right to introduce myself. My name is Patrice and I live in New England I am married and have 3 beautiful children, hence the name of my blog wife plus 3. I recently resigned from my job to stay home and support my family. Working became more and more stressful and using my check to pay daycare just did not feel right lol. I am very excited to share my life at home with all of you! I look forward to blogging about marriage, recipes, home décor and much more………

Until Later,

~~~Treecy~~~